Some Late Night Rambling...

I am on blogger at this moment...because I have no idea how to make reading plans in the Bible when it comes to my quiet times. I thought, "Okay, I'm going to have quiet time. Where do I start?" First thing is open up Bible gateway. After staring at it for a bit, I realized I have no idea what I was going to read. I could start with Leviticus 19:18 which was the verse of the day, but I did not know how it could apply with what I was going through today. I decided to read a chapter of Jesus Burgers. As encouraging as it was, it did not lead me to any specific passage. Finally, I decided to see if my friends had any good passages shared on blogger. That's how I ended up here. I read Cody's post about Psalm 86 right before typing this, but it is just at this moment where I realized I should read it first...

Still, even as I read it, my whole heart wasn't put into it. I found myself distracted. I'm wondering where God will take me this summer and after. I'm thinking about my desire to possibly go to Tokyo Summer Project. Where is this desire coming from? And why do I have a country song stuck in my head right now? Okay, that last thought is pointless, but I'm trying to process my thoughts here.

The thing about wanting to go on Summer Project to Japan next year brings up many questions in my head. For example, if I got a job beforehand, how will I take time off that job to do something like that? What are my intentions? Is it because I've recently noticed a lot of people have been going there for missions? Do I want to go just because I want to go to Japan and not necessarily because of a mission mind set? Last time I attempted to go on a project, God closed that door within a couple weeks. How do I know that this desire to go on project in Japan is from God or not? I know there is a need there, and a lot of people there need the hope found in Jesus. This post could have even just gone into my journal, yet I feel like I should share it online.

I feel like I need some guidance right now...

Post-Graduation Thoughts

I walked at graduation 6 days ago. The last quarter of relaxing, doing my internship, and being involved with Cru, Epic, and AGO had been good. Spending time with people has also been good. These last few weeks have been an amazing time of hanging out with people who are all going different ways while some are staying in Santa Barbara afterwards. What now? I guess I need to start job searching.

It is surreal not living at the Plex anymore after two years of being there. Yeah, I'm right across the street from it for now, but I will only be at the AGO house for two months. Where am I going after? It depends on if I can get a job or not. I'm definitely going to miss being in that community where I can see so many people in a day. Some people have jobs, some will be interning or stinting for Cru next year, some will be going to grad school...I feel like a lot of people already know what they are doing. I don't yet. I'm trusting God, but I am curious as to where I will end up.

There are definitely people I've taken for granted, and there are those I have been thankful for and am even more thankful for now. God had me here for a reason, and I trust that the work he has done here will continue afterwards. Maybe I will cross paths with the people He has placed in my life in the future. It's hard to remember that we are not college students anymore.

Well, that is all I have for now. Not that motivated to write a lot, so this will be short. Oh yeah, and senior class won BOTA. I am thankful for that.