I graduated early! I finished Winter Quarter of 2013. I just started an internship with TVSB. What now? Well, I will be doing the internship for six months which means I will be in Santa Barbara until at least September. After that, I don't know what I'm doing. If I get offered a job there, I might stay longer. If not, I go depending on where I can find a job. If I can't find any, then I'm going back to NorCal. I'm basically trusting that God will provide wherever I am at.
I have noticed that wherever I am at in life, He has provided me with a lot. In high school, he provided me a community within my youth group and my church. In college, he provided me with Real Life, with Epic, with all of Cru, with brothers in AGO and sisters in ADX, with family in IVC, and even family within other churches in the Santa Barbara area. I know that I will have community wherever I go, and the community of believers I end up living life with will point me towards Christ and His love. I have been blessed by God through the community he provided, and it has been super encouraging growing wherever I am at.
The best moments are those where I get into good conversations with people about how God is working in our lives. While it is kind of sad to see some people leaving, I know God will work in them wherever He takes them. I'm sure God has more for me in Santa Barbara while I do my internship, and I pray that He will guide me in all my interactions here. I pray that I can glorify Him in everything I do. I know people who plan on Stinting next year, people who are getting jobs elsewhere, people who will be interning with Cru and Epic, and I pray that they will continue growing in their love for God. I pray that I can trust Him as much as I say I do.
For now, I should enjoy being in Santa Barbara until September. I should enjoy the three months I have left with many people I've known since freshmen year at UCSB. I should feel blessed that I have been assigned as one of the senior captains for BOTA, and hopefully I will glorify God with the decisions I make and be a good sportsman. As far as I know, this is the first time I'm leading/co-leading anything, and I'm stoked for it.
One thing I am thinking of right now: I say "I don't know" a lot. Is it because I'm actually unsure, or is it because I want to please people? If it is the latter, why is it that I feel the desire to please people? Why do I fear people's reactions? What does not knowing what I should eat have anything to do with pleasing people? So many questions...and I should be going to bed.
Until next time,
Kenneth
