The song 10,000 Reasons has been stuck in my head recently. It is a pretty simple worship song just listening to and singing it. I haven't tried playing it on an instrument yet. Even though I've only heard of it at the beginning of this year, it reminds me of when I would get lost in worship back when I first knew what it means to have a relationship with Christ. Maybe it is because I love how it mostly focuses on the Lord and not so much on us and how God worked on us. Granted, it is cool to have worship songs about how God works on us because of how broken we are, but it's so awesome to listen to worship music that focuses on His characteristics. I'm not sure if I am even making any sense.
It is Easter. I should be sleeping by now knowing I will attempt to wake up super early for the sunrise service. Yet, for some reason I felt like writing right now, right after reading passages in the Gospel about Jesus' resurrection. What stood out to me most was in Luke when an angel said, "Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen!" Why that passage? Maybe because it reminds me of Gospel choir when Pastor Victor Bell would quote that at every concert I remember. There is significance to it. After all, his resurrection is why we have Easter. His resurrection is why there are so many followers. His disciples abandoned Him, yet they end up preaching who Jesus is and dying for their beliefs. If Jesus never resurrected, then His whole ministry would have been a lie, and there is no reason to die for a lie. There must have been something significant to change the disciples' minds enough to get them to die for their faith in Christ. That significant thing is his resurrection.
It's funny. Recently I have been finding myself spending more time in prayer. I guess it is because I realize that I cannot rely on myself when it comes to making decisions. I had been making a lot of decisions lately. Some seem to be more spontaneous than others, and some of these spontaneous decisions...I don't even know why I made those decisions. Some, I never thought I would make whether ever or this soon. Yet, I find that some of my more spontaneous decisions had been more important in how I grow as a son of God and as a man. I would like to go into detail, but I feel like this is not the right place or time to talk about some of those decisions. However, I can say that God has been working in these decisions. I found myself stressing more when I relied on myself with some of these decisions, but when I bring it back to Him, things get better. What can I say? It's just been a crazy year for me. I've been having to face some of my insecurities, my pride dressed up as negativity. I want to see how God helps me grow even more during the rest of college. I want to see how I fit into His plan.
Short post, but that is all I really wanted to talk about. Until next time...
Kenneth
